A Mechanical Heart

Woe is My mechanical Heart.-

So whilst going out an about my day, it just so happened that I heard this story. A story about a person so charming, and charismatic that they were able to make others fall instantly for them. A person whose very nature was to take, but who never let themselves be moved by anyone.

I suppose at first the whole story just seemed rather interesting; unrequited feelings, social manipulation, fear....

It really made me think; How much would it suck to love someone like that?

But No.

When I think about it even more...

I wonder; How much would it suck to be afraid of feeling for another.

And to be unable to let go of that fear: The fear of failure; fear of rejection; fear of dependance.

I think this is far worse, than the former.

In life, I believe that it's easy to fall in and out of love;

To admire, to appreciate, and fantasise.

But really, when one is afraid to love; that spreads throughout their whole life.

An almost robotic effect of fear upon the heart.

that, of an often cyclical nature.

To be completely honest, this thought scares me.

I have begun to wonder whether I have allowed my heart to become somewhat mechanical,

or is it free flowing???...ishax