Crash into Me

As of late, it seems my head's been a mess.
I thought after certain events too place my perfect world would gradually begin to re-materialise in front of me. But still, Nothing.
So being slightly frustrated with myself, I spent the day curled up in bed, listening to music and trying with all my might to work out why the world still seems grey.

Crash into me - Dave Matthews Band
(Cover by Tim & Jean)

You've got your ball
You've got your chain
Tied to me tight tie me up again
Who's got their claws
In you my friend
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock
And sweet you roll
Lost for you I'm so lost for you

Listening to this today, I begin to realise how much some people affect me.
It's funny when you think about it, really; that looks, actions, and the words of other people, however seemingly insignificant can shape who you are and the person you will become.

Who I'll become....

When people are asked what they want to become, immediately 'occupations' are assumed. For me though, I don't think this is really the case. The things I hope for aren't always as clear-cut.
Don't get me wrong, a lot are. But then again, there are always other things that I find we tend to take for granted, that others don't have.

Sanity

Clarity

Courage

and Love.

If I can find these things in my life, at some point, be it sparingly or not, I would die a happy woman. Ah yes, The pursuit of happiness: Harder than expected.
But more desired than anything the world has to offer.

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